UH I'M SORRY

By Casey Law

There was nothing that I could do

I lost her

And it

It

Um it

broke me

Sorry

It’s unfortunate

That it was her death

That kinda

Woke me

That I was the one who found her

There was nothing but flowers

Around her



I was always drawn to her

I wasn’t ready

To not be

Um

Ok

And ya know

They kind of all get away



I’ll make it

I miss you

I can’t take it

Can’t kiss you

Anymore


This line is no longer operating


Sorry

Haha

Sorry

It’s not funny

Just

even after death

Your mascaras still runny

Haha

I am just

doing that to stop from crying

It’s unfathomable

I mean

How

do

you

get

past that?

or, uh


Can you ever?

No, no

Even after I let you go

I don’t think I ever really can




People say

“It gets easier as time goes bye”

But

Um

Uh

It

never really does



It’s like this gaping whole inside your chest

It

It

Feels like you’re being ripped open

From the inside out

It’s been two years

And I’m still crying

And

In a way

I’m kinda still denying

That you’re gone



I only think of you at dusk

And dawn

And morning

And evening

Fine

Obviously I’m still grieving

I’m sorry


Am I ever going to be ok?

It’s really hard

And sad

To see

The life

Fade

Out of a person



So much happens

I believe

The same place

You go after you die

Is the same place

You were when you were born


I don’t want to die

I don’t want to die

I don’t do well with death

It didn’t look peaceful

A yellowish tint took over face

She was

then

completely

in another place

She was so warm

That’s something that

Uh

Always stays with me

I remember

In her last moments


She’d lay with me

I said

I love you

And

I thought that she said

I love you

back

But

Uh

She didn’t

Because.


That’s death


It’s

not

romantic


Casey Law is a 14-year-old poet who was born and currently resides in New Jersey. When she’s not writing poems, she enjoys other artistic activities such as drawing and dancing. She has a published poetry book and continues to pursue her love for poetry and writing.